Wednesday, September 27, 2006
C.H.I.L.D.H.O.O.D

Before I begin.. don't say i didn't warn u. This is a LONG Blog.

The best time of my life.

My childhood was really.. bittersweet.
Life was so simple. Enjoyed reading story books.. especially written by Enid Blyton. There were unlimitless opportunities for me to do the things i wanted.. to watch tv shows.. disney cartoons were an all time favourite..

Everytime after school.. would walk this very long stretch of route back home.. doubly fast.. triple good time. HAHAS.. there was this gal.. who thought I wanna compete with her in walking.. wahahas.. orange was INNOCENT! but since she thought tat way, orange don't mind playing with her. heh.. and everytime orange won. HAHAS.

Holidays was always bitter sweet too. how come? Bitter cos orange got to do LOTs of homework from school and LOTS of writings from HOME. Hahas.. that trained my handwriting ah. Never regretted a least bit. Sweet cos orange get to go to my aunt's place (Dad's sister) at there, get to teach some Math or Chinese to my cousins! Xiao xuan and Xiao wei! Hahas.. then stay there for a good 1 ~ 2weeks! Hahas.. everytime leaving their place, back to mine was always TEARFUL Separation for us...

Going to church was just a past time to me when I was in Primary School. Wasn't at all serious with God. Going to church was only an On Off thingy.. Then i entered Secondary School. I was in secondary 1. It was only when this very same church put out a banner saying: Free 3 months Guitar Lessons for beginners. Cool. That brought light to my eyes. Told Daddy about it. He was 100% in consent. Wow. I can play guitar now!

3 mths guitar was hard. When practising uncle's guitar (from Daddy's friend) at home (haven't got my own yet).. i remembered that i was strumming so much until one of the string just BROKE! OMG... I was so shock la. Guitar was a BIG thing to me.. aiyo... I got this phobia then.. i worried that the string will snap anytime. Hahas. Thank God, the passion in me overcame that phobia.

The same uncle then brought me a classical guitar. I was SO HAPPY! of cos it wasn't a gift. My daddy bought it for me thru him.. hahas.. thats not the point. Yamaha C-60 then became my instument.. my very own Guitar. I took great care of it since then. But the story doesn't ends here. Shortly after the 3 months ended... the guitar was chucked at one of the corner in my bedroom.

At secondary school.. no primary school friends.. nobody i know of at all. I was clueless of everything. Wasn't close to my dajie at home, seldom see her at home too. Youngest sister at that time was only 8 yrs of age. Hahas. Middle child crisis!

Sports then became my everything in secondary. My newly discovered passion, Running, then birthforthed. My brain was suddenly like a dry sponge... eagarly absorb knowledge from sch everyday. I'm not ashamed of my secondary school at all. Serangoon Secondary School. A school tat is notorious for its Ah Bengs and Ah Lians. Nobody thought good about this school. All my 6 choices of Secondary was not chosen at all due to my 'Good' PSLE results. HAHAS. and I was miraculously 'thrown' into this school.

The amazing moments in school.. I was appointed as a school prefect shortly.. have to manage LOTS things.. school work.. prefect's duties.. librarian duties, girl guide stuff.. and things at home. There wasn't any time for myself. Church? Hahas. yesh.. it was still at the BACK of my head. Going out to orchard road was always a breeze for me when approached by Christians to tell me about God.

Oh yes... I know all these. U see, i attended sunday school when I was young. Hahas. Yup, its alrights... save the detail for someone else. - This was what I told them. YES. Straight in the face. Save everyone's time.

Then secondary 2.. My classmate, Chen Ting... she invited me to her church! Hahas.. we were running kakis too.. but we represented different houses. Hahahs. So of cos i agreed. OMG.. guess wat? she took me to the very church which i stopped going! After so many yrs.. *gosh* Amazing.

Began to attend the church on a regular basis since then. But wasn't very committed still then. So many things to do... Until things began to happen.. I could no longer tahan. I was really in need of strength. I begun to take God seriously. There was nothing else to believe in. Seriously.. my family tried everything.

Once again.. I began to take out my guitar. Then I sang. I played till my fingers were kinda bruised. I strummed.. sang.. and cried. Nothing could take my pain away.. Then I prayed. Then I heard Him. (oh pls, its not hallucinating!) Believe it or not, this was my experience. The calmness soothes my hard mind immediately.

Since then... I love to play guitar. My guitar was the greatest asset to me. I did not have the chance to learn things compared to my other 2 sisters when young. Deep in my heart I wanted to learn martial arts. Hahas. But i was then in my teens.. TOO LATE!

Finally I got baptised after my O-levels. Changed alot spiritually. The physical me was still very much the same old me.. wasn't too rebellion before and so not much interesting news to share... HAHAS.

Yup.. Thats my CHILDHOOD. Hows THAT? Bittersweet. INDEED it was.

*DaRK CHOCOLATED*