Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Xiaoshi's thinking - Afternoon

Sometimes our lives take a turn into the darkness.
We never knows when we might plunge into that black hole, not knowing which way to turn, or even being able to function at a normal level.
We may be in the grips of grief, depression, illness, alcoholism or drug abuse.
We may have fears, emotional or physical violations, or a deep sadness.

No matter the cause, the effect can be so overwhelming and overbearing we feel overwhelmed beyond belief. When we experience these times of utter helplessness and we can barely put one foot in front of the other... However, God will send slivers of light into our lives. He will be there, so we may dwell in safety.(Ps.4:8) These slivers of light maybe in the form of a note, or flowers received, a dinner delivered, a special kind word, a phone call, or someone just stopping by to "be with us." God will use friends, acquaintances and even strangers to help us.

He will use events and circumstance to lighten our load and make the walk more bearable. He will personally be available to comfort and guide us, to give us wisdom in decision making, and to love us right where we are. He will bring those rays of light into the dark room of our lives, and help us through our time of need. But... we must do our part, however, and open our eyes to see the slivers of light He sends our way. He really... loves us very much, for we are His children, and He will never leave or forsake us.

I think God has been really very gracious to me. After experiencing so much joy for the past 7 days of holiday, I think God had really sort out my thoughts. I guess I have had nothing to blame on except myself for walking away from Him. What's so great to a person when what you are getting is no big deal and what you are losing is such a big loss?