Thursday, September 28, 2006
i know i will miss mummy.

Bloggio. orange's mood today isn't great.

this morning orange got awaken by the hostel fire alarm. as usual... its technical failure. and NO ONE did anything. Perhaps due to the fact that there was really no one around. =.= this term break really end fast. orange can feel the school stress coming back very soon. Projects.. Assignments.. Reports.. Labs.

woke up... found my nose bleeding. how great.
orange need nutrients.. lots of it. but none can be found in ntu.
so fast is friday tmr. dun wanna face it.
mummy is leaving..to korea..with Dajie. Thats wat i'm worried about.
Thank God got Cousin Jenny with them. Cousin Jenny had been to some many places.. hard to imagine if they would get lost out there with her around.
But still, i'm sad.. worried. very depress.

dunno what would happen. dunno what can happen. God... pls protect all 3 of them.
Let my Dajie experience this overseas travelling can? She already haven't step out of singapore for so long. Pray that she will not last min change her mind.

wish i can eat mummy's cooking before she leaves.
today she called me.. requested some help from me.
i immediately pause my stuff and did hers first.
this week she had been busy.. i guessed. never call me at all.
wanted to tell her so much that i wanna eat her cooking and won't get to taste it all the way until she is back from korea.
this whole week already didn't get to eat.. still must wait next week she comes back only by then i'll be back at ntu another week before i go back! =.=

as usual.. my mummy sometimes snap at me. =.=
whenever i give a slower-than-her reply.
so in the end i didn't say out. she definitely will snap at me for being so childish.
i also fear that she will lose her cool.. i hate it when she lose her cool on hp. i wanted to explain myself but won't get a chance at all.

on hp then she suddenly ask me: will u be coming back home to eat lunch?

i got tongue-tied for a while. then i laugh... of cos don't have la.. its impossible!
there goes my reply.. FOS.. without much thinking.
oh well. orange pls wake up. u are 23 years old already. be more sensible can! u can always eat when she comes back!

at home, i feel like i'm the eldest. actions or words. i have to be independent. my Dajie... forget it.. if she is happy in life, i'm already very glad.

argh. i dunno y.. i'm just feeling depressed. i just need a nice cry.