Friday, October 13, 2006
s.t.r.e.s.s.f.u.l .... ORANGE IS.

orange been really busy these days... especially when exams are just like, round the corner.. WHHAMMED! Thats it.

Thank YOU LORD! wahas.. orange haven't complete her stuff completely.. but the TO DO folder is shrinking. YUP! Glory be to God! For sustaining poor orange.. so duper lacky in zz.. been experiencing duper splitting headaches these few days and no zz any earlier than 2 am plus continuously for days! dunno whats wrong with my stomach.. its just not the usual self these days.. maybe its stomach flu. also LS a few times on monday. after tat every day was the urge to LS. what is going on?? but i must confess. God made me stronger and stronger each time i face problems.

Today received THE EMAIL from GIP Office. sent ME a list of IT companies for me to choose and I'm supposed to rank ALL of them in preference.. =.="

After thinking long and HARD.

I made THE choice. -.-

1. 北京可口可乐饮料有限公司
2. PMG China
3. Sykes Shanghai Co Ltd
4. 上海百林通信软件有限公司
5. Beijing CCS Optical Fiber Cable Co., Ltd.
6. AMD Technologies ( China ) Co., Ltd
7. Gemplus
8. Worksoft Creative Software Technology, Ltd
9. Corning ( Shanghai ) fiber optic company
10. StarComLog International Logistics ( Shanghai ) Ltd.

i really love my family. but i dunno y i kept taking up the opportunities to leave them. HK Poly attachment, OCS 1 year training, Hostel living, and next, GIP China of 6 mths..

once i graduate, it will be 4 years of long busy bond of not able to be at home long. heiz.. i'm confused by all these.. is it meant for me to grow stronger emotionally?

*****

Hmm... i guess I'm not as young as i was in the past.. the tiredness due to lack of zz had taken its toll on me.. and i'm really affected by it. take my driving session yesterday as an example.. I totally got BIG problem in braking the car.. can't seem to brake smoothly in time and made my instructor so disappointed in me.. =.=

can't control my mind well.. these are all the consequences of me lacking in zz. argh. sometimes i really hope to have someone pushing me.. keeping me in discipline. everytime i got to take on such role.. and there's practically no one to keep the reins on me.

Do u call this freedom? If it is.. i won't want such freedom. Sometimes being independent.. it can be really lonely ya? no one to remind u things.. no one to nag at u.. absolutely no one. u are on ur own.

Exams are just round the corner. Very soon it will ends. Immediately come next the work. Working is stressful once again. Very soon its Christmas. Next, The Attachment. Time really doesn't waits for me. sometimes i think of it, its so cruel to me. what am i doing all my life with? for what?

am I normal to think of such stressful thoughts? or am I the only one who really have nothing better to do and so such thoughts will race across my mind?

maybe.