Thursday, May 25, 2006
t.i.r.e.d..o.r.a.n.g.e

Working really worked me out...

S.I.G.H!!!

MY First day at work:
~Reported 0840 and was supposed to be late
(cos was asked to report at 0830)

~But it was actually a powerpoint briefing by my own batch mate..
(wahahahas..saved by God)

~Out of only 2 possible places, was assigned to the better one.
(cos the other one had a BIG BULLY SADIST in it.. notoriously known to torture freshies like me.. *p.h.e.w...Thank God again!)

~Then received bad news..
(ship will be doing overnight sailing for 2 days!?... and that's the day sailing begins)

~Rushed back hostel..
(had quick lunch, rest of time pack my stuff..halfway realised i FORGOT to BRING my safety boots!!!!!)

~Rushed back base...
(pengs...not much time left and ship is leaving soon! went to e-mart got my safety boots... my 3rd pair already lo!! Haiz... don't wanna buy but no choice! cos safety first.. wa biang..if continue like this, i can open a shop to rent safety boots le..)

~Rushed to ship...
(then everything else next happen very fast.. got my cabin, so COLD lo! argh.. had to tuned my brain to the SEA again... so OFF...and I'm like studying Computer Science.. duh~! to those who know computer terms.. its JUST like doing a quick format to the brain ... 'quick NTFS format')

WELL.. hahas.. really must thank God for assigning me there.. some how i meet back some colleagues, male counterparts whom i worked with last vacation...female counterparts whom i met during last december sqn carolling singing! and lastly 1 who was my trainee from tekong last year!! wahahahas.. and both of us are in the same cabin and are bunkmates! its really so surprised to meet up with them ^^

But when its working time, ITS WORKING TIME. NO JOKES. NO CHILD'S PLAY.
Thats where i kena shot by Ops O here and there... hai. what to do when i only return once in every 6 mths? my brain only contains software. WAHAHAHAHAS.. i can't answer MEANS i can't answer!!! smoke bombs also became so CLEAR. argh.

these 3 days 2 nights was really tiring.. only zz for so few hours.. then must work. hai.. but i should not complain too much. cos my bunkmate really zz less than me lo. cos we are of different level.. argh.. hate this level thingy.. then although she has more workload than me, i had higher responsibility burden compared to hers actually. hai.. this is the REAL LIFE OUT THERE. really sick of all these at times!

This morning set alarm to wake at 0310.. but cos i put the HP at wrong place... couldn't feel the vibration at all lo! But thank God for YIYAN! she is SOO GOOD! She woke me up to work at 0322.. REALLY...speechless. SOO THANKFUL and GRATEFUL to YIYAN!! I shall not elaborate on what can actually happen to me if i was late this morning..

Working .. blah blah blah...

Then i reach back hostel this afternoon.. with loads of stuff on my mind. pengs..

guess what?

Congratulate me.

Was told today that I'll be given FREE FOOD AND LODGING at ship for entire next week.

isn't that cool?

A.r.g.h.

after staying at hostel, so frequently away from home has become a norm to me. So by right i should feel fine ah. but can u imagine... the buffer said the heads are prone to be choked easily.. so each time can ONLY use 2 pieces of toilet paper. NOT because to save the world but because the toilet cubicles choke easily..

WHAT IS THIS?!

argh...

now i think my hostel toilet is so big lo compared to the heads! wahahahas...!

sigh.. but this is the first time i'm given such chances to learn, i think i will think in a positive way to allow me to learn faster. else next time i returning to base for good, i think i'll be left-right-centered even more.

Anyways! I believe everything is in God's hands and He will not foresake me! ^^

"He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak." Isaiah 40:29
(NIV)

Because we can work in areas where strength and power are praised, many of us do our
best to hide our insecurities and shortcomings. We often go to great lengths to
exaggerate our strengths and downplay our weaknesses in order to make ourselves look
better to others. In truth, the very people we try to impress may be struggling with the same feelings of weakness and may be just as weary from trying to hide it.

There are times when my physical health isn't as strong as I would like it to be.
During those times, my spiritual health can also wane. Although such times of weakness feel like they last for far too long, I know that each and every time that happens, God has given me a new point of view and a new way to trust in Him.

I have learned that it is okay to be weak just so long as I remember that there is One who enables me to be strong.

The very fact that I cannot do certain things on my own only serves to emphasize
that Christ is the One who works through me. If I never struggled with anything, I
would never learn anything. If the path I walk as a Christian never trip me up, I
would never spend as much time on my knees in prayer as I do. Being strong has nothing to do with me, but everything to do with God.

I H.A.V.E to admit that I am weak when it comes to certain areas of my life.
I H.A.V.E to A.L.S.O admit that I have come this far by faith and it is this very
faith that connects me to a source of strength and peace that is indescribable.
Nothing this world has to offer even comes close to this kind of power.. not even to this 'Nothing Comes Close'.

Will love to do more exercises now.. cos IPPT is coming next wed. and food at work place really...not very healthy. But the whole place is so argh..COLD! i cannot don't eat! also can't work when stomach is so fast emptied by my brain cells hard at work.

dear oranges.. tonight i'll eat my rightful portion of U ooo...

t.i.r.e.d..o.r.a.n.g.e